A Conundrum of Conceptuous Continuity

Right so, ‘conceptuous’ isn’t an actual word but to hell with rules. I’m feeling strangely relaxed today. Nevermind the 5 AM GI Party or standing outside in the rain- I’m feeling pretty good about myself today. I’m a bit tired sure, but I feel less strained. I don’t think it has to do with class but simply something inside me. I’d like to think that getting a massage last night opened up my mind somehow but it may just be more then that.

After I bought the tea stuff from that one store last night, I actually debated on going back and getting a tarot reading. I’ve never believed in that stuff and I doubt I do now but it’s a curious work, these tellers do and I’d like to believe theres good things ahead.

So I’ve actually thought of doing some more writing recently. I’ve had some good ideas emerge for Jacob’s Ladder- just some basic concepts. I know I should try focusing on simply one story at a time but that’s not me. I need to expand. I was particularly pleased about Dark Partings, even though I realize its nowhere near its finalized version. I know I can do better. And someday I will. I just have to keep going until I reach the point of satisfaction that I want for that story.

Man, I’ve been playing less Warcraft recently. Good thing? Maybe. I’ve been raiding on the main days but I actually decided to miss a raiding day and go out to town for once. I know, it’s a total “woah” moment. I don’t really regret it either. The days I do play, I don’t stay on for long unless something is up. People tend to keep to themselves and I don’t find much fun in the game anymore outside of guild matters.

Am I slowly slipping away from that environment? I don’t know. A part of me wants to. I’ve made some good friends and I’ve been coming back to Cenarion Circle and even starting leveling a paladin, simply for fun, boredom, and to hang out with friends. Maybe roleplay.

I’ve always wanted to write about why I left Cenarion Circle and express my greatest feats and experiences on that server. I still feel as if I left behind a legacy and while I tend to find it hard to believe, I’m not forgotten. People still talk about me, whether as in the person or the character. Even though I don’t like to admit it, I know I made some people unhappy but that’s the thing. I couldn’t appease everyone. It was all about them and never about me. And when I finally decided to be selfish for once, everything collapsed because apparently relying on one person was how a guild should’ve been. I disagree.

So I suppose my next post will be about my experiences in Warcraft. As geeky as it can be, it was quite the adventure with much good (and bad) things worth remembering.

Oh right. So I went to speak SSGT Boles about reclassing and got the sheet to list my top 6 jobs. Right now, this is what I have picked:
1- Network Intelligence Analysis
2- Aerial Gunner
3- Communications-Computer Systems Operations
4- Command Post
5- Imagery Analysis
6- Mental Health Service

A good site for job descriptions can be found at: www.usmilitary.about.com

I should be out of class in about a week or so. How long till my next station? I don't know. I still feel a bit disappointed in all of this but I also feel slightly excited for the opportunity to do something that I know I have alot more interest in. We shall see, eh?